Chronicle of a breakup

you said you didn't sleep well
since you knew i was upset
but of course you did
you snored away
you never lose a night of sleep
if only i was so happy
if only my mind was so small
if only thoughts wouldn't enter
if only i was smarter
if only i didnt still somewhere believe
that you love me the way i want
then i wouldnt still await
some grand show of affection
unable to concentrate
on the rest of my life
if only i still didnt hope somewhere inside
that you really are the one